I keep feeling like we made a mistake getting pregnant a 3rd time. I love our life with our 5 and 2.5 year old girls. We have the routine down. We can do one-on-one. Morning and bedtime routines are perfection between my husband and I. I could write a book on it; but throw another baby in there??

Did I eff up by deciding to ruin this family? My girls are so sweet and amazing. I feel like we are doing them a disservice… I am just full of regrets.

20 weeks pregnant with a baby boy… idk how to handle being outnumbered. I don’t care about what it does to me - what I care about is upsetting my girls. Destroying their confidence and all the love they feel… the idea that they’ll feel inadequate or lonely is killing me…

My oldest already says I give all my attention to the youngest (even though I’m very mindful of not doing that). She doesn’t “love” her sister and doesn’t want a baby brother…

I feel so much guilt.

Husband just keeps saying “it’ll be fine”. Doesn’t bother trying to actually discuss it…

I’m scared this will destroy how great our lives have been. Why didn’t I just appreciate what we already had?

(I already love this baby so much but I’m still terrified…)