9 Weeks Left… 😳

I am 30 weeks pregnant and I am so… scared. Not for my baby, I am so unbelievably ready and excited to finally meet my son and hold him. I’m scared for birth… I’ve been through the physical pain of a ruptured ectopic pregnancy before and I cannot describe how awful the pain was for me…

That being said I’m terrified for what this might feel like after that very traumatic experience. I’m terrified of tearing and needing stitches because I know that’s common… and I’m terrified I’ll end up bleeding too much or needing surgery. I was so scared to be put under when I lost my left fallopian tube to that ectopic pregnancy…

Someone help me? How do I calm my nerves about this birth? 😞 Because you genuinely never know what’s going to happen. You can make a birth plan all you want but in the end things happen the way they just do…

How do I prepare myself for birth with this fear?