Need to vent, no one to talk to.

Hello, my name is Karmen, I’m 19. Im currently pregnant, due in February of next year. This is my first pregnancy. I became homeless shortly after finding out that I was pregnant. I lost my car about a month beforehand. I had a job but I had to quit due to transportation issues. Almost every day of my pregnancy I’ve been trying to get a new job, Im currently taking online courses for medical billing and coding. My pregnancy has been utterly miserable and exhausting. In the beginning I waa getting grief from family members for getting pregnant. My child’s father had cheated on me several times , and broke up with me. I’ve been trying to keep my head on straight though and try to stay positive. My older sisters had baby girls around the beginning of this year and They have a lot of hand me downs to pass to my little girl, a lot of the things being brand new. I try to think about that and I am very grateful. But I feel as if I failed her already. When we leave the hospital after I have her, I’m bringing her back to my grandmas house, in a room that is so small that I cant even put her crib or bassinet up. Its somewhere to live but being here has taken a toll on me mentally, the lack of help and support and concern that I feel when I’m here is so overwhelming. I’m 28 weeks, the doctors told me she’s measuring very small for her gestational age, and I may have to have a c-section in January instead of going full term. I’m so afraid, I’ve been reaching out trying to talk to my family about it, everyone brushes or off or tells me “well you shouldn’t have gotten pregnant” I’m so depressed, I’m having difficulty with getting back and forth to doctors appointments, and there’s a lot more. sorry to just dump all of this on you guys but i really need some encouragement.