Unplanned pregnancy…
I am coming in here to seek advice. At times I feel like I overthink or my mind plays tricks on me. I need advice, I need to know if my feelings are valid or if I did this to myself.
My husband and I have two children the youngest one was planned and is 11 months old. My husband and I talked about not wanting anymore children.. with this economy is impossible to afford daycare. At one point, we did mention that if I were to get pregnant that I would become a stay at home home. There would be some sacrifices but we could manage with one income. Anyway, I was late on my period so I decided to take a pregnancy test. It came back positive. I was excited, scared, nervous, I had so many feelings because i was definitely shocked! I took some time and calmed myself down. Later in the afternoon I shared the news with my husband. He seemed excited he mentioned that “we needed a bigger house” and that he was “excited”. This is where I think I messed up. I expressed my concerns about finances and childcare expenses. I said to him “I don’t know what we are going to do” I said “the pregnancy was not planned and i was worried about affording another child. My husband responded “well what do you want to do”. I honestly was not expecting that response. I said “ what do you mean?” And he said, “ do you want to abort it?” When he asked me that my heart is shattered. I was hoping that he was going to reassure me that everything was going to be ok. I stayed quiet and I told him that I didn’t know what I wanted to do. I had so many feelings and thoughts. After a while, we just kind of stayed quiet about it. I asked him what his true feelings were and how he felt about the baby. That is when he shared that maybe we should abort it because we can’t afford having another one. He said it was not the right time. When those words came out of his mouth, I could hardly contain my tears. I went upstairs to try to put myself together, but he caught me crying. He asked me what was wrong. I didn’t want to tell him because I knew he would be upset. I told him anyway. I told him that I thought he was going to reassure me that everything was going to be ok. He got upset and he said that I was manipulating the situation and turned it on him. He said that I am the one that was having negative thoughts and that I am the one that made him say that. He said that he was excited about the baby but my negative comments made him confused. I am now sitting here, confused. Of course, I’m going to keep the baby I would never abort. But I am just confused if I was in the wrong and I made him think that way. I am not sure if I want to be with somebody that thinks it’s OK to abort.
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