3 under 2 😵

I’m 8 months postpartum. About 3 weeks ago I found out I was pregnant again. Had a Drs. appt last week to check and he found 2 gestational sacs. I have a follow up appointment on the 11th. And I have a flew blood work tests he wants me to do. Estradiol levels (apparently to check the possibility of 1st trimester miscarriage)

I am absolutely terrified and nervous about this pregnancy. My first kid is only 8.5 months old and I do not know if my mental health can deal with 3 babies in about 9 months.

I feel horrible because sometimes I think that maybe it wouldn’t be such a bad thing to miscarry but then I feel awful for making the new babies feel unwanted.

My mom and my in-laws have offered all the help possible and husband keeps telling me we are going to be ok, but I still very sad and scared.

Any advice? Or words of wisdom from other moms?