I need to rant because I feel like I don’t much support in this. I ended up getting pregnant 2 years ago right around Christmas I found out, which is my mistake for being a little reckless. We both decided it was best to not go forward with it which, I ended up getting an abortion about a month after. Fast forward 2 years here I am, pregnant again same time around Christmas time and it has had a weighted guilt on me a bit. Ever since the first I’ve been very cautious with my cycle and tried to avoid any chances of it happening again. I don’t take birth control because I am one of those people who believe it’s not really good for you. But I do try to be safe. Regardless I’m not ready at all for this and I feel horrible if I had to do it again but I know it’s what’s best right now