I give up….

We’ve been trying for 6 months to have a baby. Now all of a sudden things are different. He misses yesterday and today and knew I peaked on 12/28. We did it that day but he didn’t want to do it after, giving me sorry excuses that I don’t buy at all. So I told him that I will no longer try and I give up and to stop coming around when I come off my cycle and knowing I ovulate within a few days after my period. Save myself the trouble of going through this every month. I really just don’t know how to feel as it is hard for me to have kids to begin with and I’ve been discouraged these last few months as I’ve came on my period every time… Maybe it’s just not meant to be and I’m okay with it. I just needed to vent, don’t have many people I can talk to.