I just feel a bit sad. I had an ectopic pregnancy. The doctors had to remove one of my fallopian tubes and I’m in so much pain. And I’m just sad this pregnancy didn’t work out. I know that the ectopic pregnancy wasn’t safe for me to keep but I keep thinking about what could have been. What could have been if the egg implanted in the correct area. I know it wasn’t a baby yet and it was nothing but cells (I was told to look at it that way) but the fact I was able to get pregnant. I have PCOS so trying to conceive wasn’t an easy process. My husband and I have been trying for 2 years. I was so excited when I first got my positive test. I just wish everything would have worked out, that it wasn’t an ectopic pregnancy. That I didn’t have to have this surgery. I’m in so much pain reminding me. I’m stuck in bed with nothing to do but think, stuck in my thoughts. I still want to have another child but I’m scared now. This can happen again. Just thinking about it has me feeling depressed.