How can I not think about if he were to move on if I die first I wouldn’t mind since I’d be dead but how can I stop feeling jealous about since I’m alive I keep thinking. He’d leave me as I’m alive ( negative thoughts for the win ) id want him to be happy but how long do guys norm move on for ? Every guy is diff and all the texting you see on the pictures form me was a anxiety attack but .. how can I not think about it has I’m alive rn and .. boy I keep thinking he doesn’t love me at all ( he does but my mind is making me crazy ) I’m young ofc but I can’t do therapy but any tips rather then therapy

Like I wouldn’t care if he were to move on but just thinking of it hurts abit if I were to die first .. like I really do want him to be happy Sorry for maybe spamming the same topic but it’s different picture but how long do guys move on from a dead gf or wife he says he might not but if he does he’d still love me and plans on. Being burried with me 🥹🤷‍♀️ sorry anxiety is talking -

Some of the chats seem toxic but at that time I was in tears of anxiety and couldn’t breathe sorry 😞 lol… but srrsly how can I not think about the future ? Like this it’s unhealthy