I’m thinking of going M.I.A until July2024. Like no contact with anyone. I’ve deleted all of my socials already. I want to come back the best I could be. Just change my whole appearance & aura. I haven’t been myself for a minute and I’ve been feeling so ugly lately. My mind also needs healing. I also want to stop talking to this guy I’ve been dating for a month and a half. but I don’t know if I could without feeling bad because I shouldn’t have even started dating him honestly…now it feels selfish. I’m also going to miss talking to him. But I feel like I really need time away from him so I could get myself together. I don’t even feel confident around him and I just overthink that he’ll point out my insecurities. I just feel so ugly and I’m tired of having to look away and act awkward when I’m around him so he don’t look directly In my face. I’m sure by July he’ll maybe be taken but that doesn’t even matter at this moment. How do i tell him what I need ? What are ways to get rid of distractions? How do I stay disciplined? What are good books, podcasts, or anything that would be useful along my journey?