My boyfriend is like known by his parents and many people in our area as an “angel” I’ve known him growing up always knew he was that way we are now in a relationship 3years… he basically won a massive competition for the first time in his life and got an award for being best player… that night I had found out from someone else that sent into their team group chat was about drugs… I asked him about it and if he was doing it he said “no I doubt it“ “I don’t think so” etc etc his phone died and I was awake till 3am got to sleep woke half 3 woke then at 5:50am couldn’t get back to sleep and had an exam that morning at 9am after having no sleep.

He text me in the morning once he got a charger saying he had done it. I hate drugs anything to do with them everything I will not get involved go near them anything. I had said I’m done if you go near it. He did it anyways (cocaine) this is the most addictive drug in the world… now he hasn’t done it since i basically ended it for few days we spoke and came to terms like he said he’s not sorry for doing it that he was going to experience it sometime in his life and I had said ok it’s done now that’s it. But he won’t promise me he won’t do it again at other big events. It’s who he’s surrounded by his friends as he wouldn’t sit at a table with me and say will we do coke it’s only because his friends are doing it, now nearly a month later I still think about it cry about it how he’s going to more then likely do it again even though he knows it affected me a lot. I don’t know what to do I love him so much he said probably b like only 4/5 times more in his whole life he’s (20) and that if he was a parent or anything he wouldn’t ever touch it. But it still doesn’t sit right with me, he’s tried it so I don’t see why it had to be done again? Drugs are just too normalized in life today and it’s so sad. No one sees the dangers many people die from their first time use but to say I find it hard to think of anyone who hasn’t done drugs is a bad side of the world, what do I do or say to him or what? I never want him to ever do it again but clearly i doubt I’ll get my way with that boundary :(