I have 4 kids to my ex husband. I was open to having more kids if I found the right person.. well I found the wrong person and wound up finding out I’m pregnant right after breaking it off. He seems to want nothing to do with the baby or me at this point.. I don’t know how to feel about this pregnancy. It was a shock and as much as I want a baby, I don’t want it like this.. I’m just a mix of emotions and the hormones are not helping. My sister and a coworker both have said there are options, but I could never abort a pregnancy, especially after going through miscarriages and knowing there are so many people that would give anything to have just one baby. I can’t wrap my head around carrying this baby, knowing it’s mine and then giving it up either. I just don’t know how to feel and what to think.