Soooo a couple of days ago my boyfriend and I broke up. We got in a huge fight a couple of weeks prior to that and since then I felt really doubtful of our relationship but I convinced myself it was just a phase. He, however, decided he just didn’t want to be in a relationship anymore. And that’s how the breakup happened.

I’m not stupid, I knew it wasn’t gonna last after the fight and learning things about his personality that I knew wouldn’t change. But unlike him I’m a fighter, I believed that conversation was key (I still do) and that the relationship was worth fighting for. But once I heard those words from him “I don’t want to be in a relationship anymore.” My system completely shut down. I realized that there was nothing I could do to fix it, and it was time for me to accept the fact that I needed to let things go.

So far it hasn’t been excruciatingly painful. I think my past relationships cushioned the blow on this one lmao. Most of all I feel like my actions weren’t regretful. I did what I could as anyone whose in love would (except him), and I let go when I knew I had to.

Overall, I’m proud of myself for not making the same mistakes, but I still feel pretty shit on how it went downhill. You see, he and I had many firsts, such as introducing each other to our parents, going out on proper dates, and whatnot. It all just made a huge impact on me and part of me is not prepared to let some of those memories go.

The thing they don’t tell you about having a proper relationship is how many memories they leave behind. Like, I went back home that day and practically everything I have has him imprinted on it. It’s ridiculous really.

Anyways, that’s all I wanted to share rn, if anyone has some advice, comments, or literally anything, please share. I’m just trying not to let my emotions take over and deal with this in as many ways as I can. ✊💔