So I was in an abusive relationship at 18 with a guy for over a year. He is a narrsasist and has aspd which he thought was something to brag about. We started dating the week lockdown hit and even though we didnt know each other well neither of us wanted to be alone and isolated so i moved in with him during the lockdown period. The emotional abuse and manipulation started pretty much after two weeks but i couldnt really see it to begin with. I have autism and struggle to pick up on things until its too late. Eventually he got very physical. I wasnt allowed a phone and had no contact with friends or family, he controlled what i wore and what i ate. I wasnt even allowed to go to work unless he was there watching me. He would accuse me of cheating constantly even though i wasnt allowed to talk to people and then he would tell me he was cheating just to hurt me (even if it isnt true. I dont know if it was). I found r*pe porn on his phone even though he knew of my previous trauma and told me hed never do that (come to find he had a past record of it as a younger teen). He had stabbed me with knives, choked me out and broken my property on the daily. Even abused our two kittens i rescued . At 19 i found out i was pregnant and he promised me things would change. I was just so so scared of leaving him and didnt have anywhere to go. Things did changed for a little but at 6 weeks pregnant he got drunk and started threatening me. Saying he never has and never will love me, doesnt care about the baby or me and wants us gone. He pulled a knife out and i ran. He chased me down the street bashing and choking me until i eventually got away and made it to the servo. I was half naked, he ripped some of my ear and face peircings out and i was covered in blood. The man working there refused to let me borrow his phone to call the police and kicked me out but luckily some off dutey cops showed up to fill their car. They arrested him and that night i packed a small bag full of everything i needed and ran away. I left all my belongings behind but just didint know when hed be coming back. My family... even though they knew the whole story they disowned me for being pregnant and refusing to marry him. I thought about getting an abortion because of the lack of support I had but I already loved the baby and was told i was infertile. My high school sweatheart and I kept in touch on and off for years and at 8 months pregnant we ended up dating, although it was a weird situation i was fully accepted into his family. My ex was only given a good behaviour order for 18 months and an fvo for 18 months. Seeing him walkong around town free made me sick. My boyfriend and I moved out of state before my son was born and are doing amazingly. Hes the best dad in the world and were currently saving for <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> in hopes of a second little miracle. Ive been struggling with severe anxiety and nightmares for almost 3 years now and its been getting worse and worse lately. My exs sentance and order is ending in a few weeks. Right before my sons first birthday, hes got a famous brother who happens to know everyone i know and im scared they know where i am and will come for me. The courts have granted me full custody but said until he hurts my baby he will have parental rights if he aplies for them. Im just so scared he will fight for rights to my son and will hurt him just to break me. Thats the type of person he is. Im just really struggling.