I don’t see how my fiancé can be ok with us being together for 9 years together, and not marrying me. Proposing to me and then telling me can’t wait to make me his wife then going back on things he’s said over the years. Every time I bring it up he says it’ll happen when the time is right. 3 times we’ve canceled our wedding date because he didn’t want it, even though he initiated it all..I’m such a fucking idiot and I hate myself. I’ve lost so much of myself wondering why I’m not good enough for someone I’ve devoted a good portion of my life to. He’s ok with us being together and not being married, even though he won’t come out and say it. He’s lied about wanting it and I’m just done. He doesn’t want me to leave but he won’t marry me after asking and telling me over and over again that is what he wants but I’m sooo over it all.