I started getting chronic migraines about two years ago. They were debilitating. I was pretty much bed ridden for a full day to up to 2/3 days at a time. Tylenol/ibuprofen/excedrine would never work. I would get extremely nauseous, dizzy, and had no focus,

This made my life so hard.

My mom had horrible migraines the same exact way and doctors said it can run in the family. So I went with it. They gave me maxalt and zofran.

I started to think that it was my work environment causing migraines 3-6 times in a month. Work was stressful and I quite literally had checked out of my job at that point. I found a new job and I’ve been there for a little over a year now and my migraines didn’t change. I relied on my maxalt and zofran to get me through rough days. And if you’ve ever taken maxalt you know you absolutely have to take it at the first sign of a migraine. Which I couldn’t always do. I carried those meds on me for 2 years straight. If I didn’t have them on me I would panic.

I then thought that maybe my antidepressant was causing me migraines. So I changed that about 3 times.

Nothing helped me. I was devastated. My migraines were ruining my life it felt like.

Then I kept thinking what changed in the last 2 years to possibly trigger these migraines. The only other thing that did change was I got into a relationship. I figured it couldn’t have just been that. Or maybe I didn’t want to come to terms with it. The relationship was very toxic and one sided. Of course I was to in love with him to see it all. I’m an anxiously attached. There was a lot of push pull mind games. Silent treatment. Manipulation.  Criticism. He gave me all the signs he didn’t really want the relationship or even have me in his life. Even though I bent over backwards. I felt like a puppet. Eventually, on Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> I stayed over at his place. I cooked all day for us. He watched his football. He caught an attitude with me because food wasn’t ready. It sent me into angry state. He apologized but I wasn’t over it. We fought that night, I ended up in a full blow rage and yelled at him for the first time and he yelled at me. I felt horrible because it wasn’t me but I felt like I bottled so much emotions because I didn’t take care of myself I always put him first.

Anyway, he ended up ghosting me.

BUT since then I haven’t had a migraine attack. Maybe he caused it all. I remember feeling so guilty because he hated when I had migraines and said “you take too many medications” while we were on vaca. I felt like I ruined the whole trip.

But anyway a lot is on my mind since then.

Has anyone experienced something like this?