Can I post a vent session? lol I’m 30 weeks and 3 days today and I’ve really been struggling these past few weeks.

It all started on the 11th of this month when I went to the hospital because I was bleeding from sex. Not just spotting - it was a lot!! Like we were having period sex basically.

So I went to the hospital and it turned out I had BV which could have been causing the bleeding (irritation to the cervix during sex) but while I was at the hospital I was also having consistent contractions (I think they were just Braxton hicks, but consistent)! They gave me a shot to make them stop and then I got sent home once they did stop and was put on pelvic rest & modified bed rest.

Ever since then I am paranoid about getting Braxton hicks. I am not getting many Braxton hicks which is good. But get paranoid when I do especially when they’re kinda consistent.

But also I’m tired of not feeling good 😩 my 1st trimester I had nausea. Second and going into third was mostly fine! But now I’ll randomly not feel good sometimes and I hate it. I’ll just go lay in bed and I feel really bad when I do that because my husband takes care of our daughter a lot by himself already when I work (I work from home) and this puts it on him even more. But he assures me it’s okay and I need to take care of myself.

And I feel bad but when I don’t feel good, the sound of my husbands voice makes me feel worse 😂 I haven’t told him that because I feel like it might make him sad 😂

And it’s hard because I’m trying not to do too much but when I try something as simple as picking up the house, I’ll lose my breath. Today that happened and I ended up having a short panic attack 😥 I’ve only ever had one panic attack in my life like 10 years ago so that wasn’t fun. The other day I was also super anxious out of no where (no panic attack though)

My husband basically treats it like I’m on full bed rest because he’s worried about me - which is nice but he is having a hard time keeping up with the house work and our house is a disaster. My MIL came over today and started painting the baby’s room for us and I guess offered to help my husband clean the house since it’s such a mess 😂

Ugh I’m like so done being pregnant at this point but I of course want my baby to stay inside for as long as possible! And we aren’t ready for her to come quite yet. This is my 2nd pregnancy and my first was like a dream pregnancy because it was so easy! Wish I could say the same about this one!! I’m just ready to feel like myself again. I know PP I won’t right away, but at least some of the symptoms will be gone.