I have had a previous loss at 3-4 weeks back in 2021 and I haven’t been able to get pregnant again until Thanksgiving in 2023. This was completely out of the blue with my PCOS. We told our families at Christmas and we got to see our baby for the first time. We had a scare almost 2 weeks ago where I woke up and had pink blood around me. That morning, I had an ultrasound and everything was perfect with baby. After a week of bleeding, the doctor wanted to check again and on Tuesday the 23, everything was perfect with baby once again no reason why I was bleeding and baby had a heart rate of 159. On Friday, after teaching kindergarten, I felt cramping and then a pop. I went to the ER and it turned out that my water broke and I delivered my baby into a container to do a urine sample. I had blood everywhere. After an ultrasound at the ER I was empty. My baby was gone. How do I live without them? How am I expected to go back to work and teach 5 year olds where that is the same room that I started to lose my baby in? How do I look at my husband and not feel like I let him down? What about my family? What do I do? How do I survive when my baby should be here growing? He had a heartbeat 4 days ago! That was strong and they didn’t see anything wrong! Why me? What did I do to deserve my baby to leave me so soon? How do I live? I just need someone to talk to because I feel like I let everyone around me down? I need input on what to do… please help me

Here is my precious little baby who left me way too soon. 💙

Everett Andrew🩵