I am currently 9DPO & calculated to be 2 weeks & 5 days pregnant, today with my rainbow baby! Xx

I had a few super strong symptoms yesterday, that are even worse today, that had me eventually giving in, and testing. And at 8dpo I started to see vvvfl’s! (The day before they were entirely negative)

The symptoms were similar to two pregnancies I had prior to the miscarriage last month. But this time… the symptoms are so MUCH more stronger and earlier than all previous pregnancies (this will be my 4th)

The chemical pregnancy I had last month, I had extremely mild symptoms, but there were some. And roughly 2 days before I started losing the baby, they became almost nonexistent.

I believed it would just be an easy pregnancy (symptom wise) until the loss. And I believe now, the lack of symptoms was a sign that something was wrong. So I will take the symptoms this time as a blessing! 😂

Last night I decided to test with the digital clear blue, not believing it would actually show anything, and would show a not pregnant result. and to my surprise, it actually did show positive!

My previous pregnancy that resulted in a chemical, did not show anything on the clear blue digitals at 3 weeks & 4 days. The first response digital however, did show positive at the time.

the paper tests were much darker than this time around by that point, So I am praying this is a very good thing, and this little one will stick.

So this was a huge shock to have it work this early. Especially as I am 2 weeks away from my expected AF / period!

Even though I have positives tests, and it was what I wanted, to be pregnant again, even so soon after a loss, I am scared to be happy in case something goes wrong. However I am truly over the moon, I just feel I’ve detached on expressing it, or allowing myself to truly feel it.

I told my SO last night also once I got the digital reading, telling him I was going to wait to tell him until my period was due at the least.

He told me he had an urge for whatever reason to tell me that morning, before knowing, that I can tell him regardless of how early into pregnancy I am, so that he knows, and can support me if I’m struggling, or anything bad happens. But he did not discuss his thoughts there with me, until I showed him the tests.

he was very happy, but said he is worried for me (I suppose he still would be without the previous loss we had)

He also told me that I should try to let myself be happy, even if it does result in a mc, even with it being so early upon finding out.

And he is right, I am truly happy, but I’m scared to be in case my hopes are so high that it crushes me again if something goes wrong, and I am in a little bit of disbelief that the baby will stick. Or worried of getting my hopes up, incase it does not.

Photos below of all tests taken yesterday, in chronological order (morning, afternoon and evening)

And also a chart of how my LH and BBT tracking looks throughout this cycle for those who are curious of my chart progression now that I am pregnant (the lines on it are at a much steadier level to what they were prior)

also putting the pink easy@home pregnancy tests in the ‘other’ section of the Premom app to track the line progression of them on the chart, which I am only just starting to do now I have positives 💕

Thank you for reading if you got this far, whoever you are xx I really felt I had to share this wonderful news with someone and my journey ❤️🌈