I need guidance

I feel so stupid. But December 2023 my ex, he said “I wish you die and that he doesn’t care if I die today” we stopped talking.

Idk why but I reached out like feb 12th this year. He apologized he said he was mad and didn’t mean ot and if he ever regrets anything, it’s saying that to me. Then I accepted his apology. I forgave him. He invited me over that day. We already arguing. It’s already a mess. He doesn’t see how him unblocking and being friends with a woman he was just having sex with an issue. He inboxed her, he said it wasn’t about sex, but I don’t care. He know if he seen me unblock a man I use to have sex with after a break he’s going to think it was something going on the whole time. He blocked her in September 2023 last year when we started talking again after a break. So not understanding why he needed to unblock her.

This time around, I can’t remember what we argued about but I got called a slut, a prostitute, dick sucking a** bit*h. And honestly I don’t want to deal with the shit anymore but idk what to do, every time I leave when shit like this happens, he says I’m running away, I’m weak. I just need a little guidance. Idk. Maybe I overreact at times but why would y’all be friends again? That’s just seems suspicious like he’s been doing something the whole time. Idk.

Oh and it’s multiple women he unblocked that he had sex with. Not just her. Idk. I just want to be done without being called weak.

Nothing has changed. This happens every time. We break up. We get back together or start messing around and the same women pop up.

To those saying it ain’t my business. It is. You having sex with me unprotected but telling me you ain’t fuckin no one and you are. It’s an issue. Cause you friends with someone you was just fuckin on. He wouldn’t be okay with me being friends with a man I was just fucking. That’s weird and suspicious. He deleted their text thread too. Which also shows he did something.