in need of guidance

I am 23 years old. I was diagnosed with PCOS @13. I have 1 son that is 5. i just found out i am pregnant. i am obviously not in the perfect condition id like to be. and i totally understand this is 100 percent my fault. i just got diagnosed as a type 2 diabetic, and they are trying to rule out high blood pressure. my sugars while fasting will be at 257-280. my blood pressure is 135- 150ish, they had me collecting urine for 24 hours. ive never felt such ashamed to ask for guidance on what can i do that will be safe for me any my pregnacy. i’m scared that complications will occur during my pregnancy. I am scared i have to have a c-section.. currently not taking any medications. just my Pernatal vitamin. im only roughly about 5 weeks..

has anyone else gone through this? and what helped you maintain as healthy as possible 🥺