First time venting here:

There’s forsure a lot on my mind. A lot of it deals with my long term relationship. In brief is 2022 New Year’s resolution was to give me a bit more respect 🙄This June it will be 4 years. We lived separately for 3 years and 6 months We have forsure had our fair amount of issues and disagreements. Yet now living together it seems endlessly with disrespect lying/hiding things, and entitlement. The entitlement has been with touching me almost non stop and he knows I’m Demisexual. Then he knows I don’t like him saying my body parts is his. 🙈

What drives me nuts is we are 27 and in May he will be 28. I’ve been catching on with minor things that he calls his nana and a girl that is like his big sis. I’ve told him how I don’t like her as she had judged me in the past without meeting me but yet I finally compromised to meet her. Plus what a nightmare how he acts around her even in front of me. (It’s not how I would want my man acting around another woman) Then his nana says it’s the way he has always been.

Trigger Warning ‼️ So today I’ve been wanting to shut down. Well fair enough as it’s my late mom’s birthday 🎂 and I kinda wanted to sleep in. So he had let me do that but when he came home he decided to get on top of me while I was sleeping and trying to kiss up on me. He knows I’ve been through trauma. Obviously I got mad about it. He then called his nana. Her words; “she has problems” So that kinda hurts. Then been picking fights with me over something that I said looks suspicious and then says I’m accusing him of doing something. It forsure looked like something he had done in the past. Then he had today been putting words in my mouth over it 😤 Ugh im so over it today and unfortunately it’s been just been near 4 months living together.