Over life

I been unemployed for 3 months kicked out my mom has living with my sister for two weeks. I used all my money from my taxes to go to interviews. I don’t have a car I was offered a job at at a gas station. They told me I was going through a background check. I called them today because I haven’t heard from them and they told me that his district manager told him not to hire anyone. I’m my last straw with life. I’m tired of ppl saying have faith in god. It doesn’t fucking work. What did I do so bad to the universe and to god that I’m this is happening to me. I have fast food experience,warehouse experience and retail experience. I keep going to interviews and not getting a job. I’m wasting money.i really want to kill my self.