November 4th is too far away

Hi, I’m a first time mom and boy am I first time momming. I’ve been high risk since 3 weeks cause little bean decided my left fallopian tube was more comfy than my uterus. However sometime last week baby made room in my uterus and came all the way to the middle with a strong heart beat of 177 and a little foot for us to see on the 8 week check up. I can’t be more happy with the results of bed rest but by golly I think it made me go a bit crazy. I still am not back in full swing as we did just get my cleared for normal pregnancy life notice on Wednesday but I almost don’t wanna move or do anything now since baby took so well to me not moving for 6ish weeks. Everything is scary. I swear I can’t read enough books or journal enough times to make the worry stop. I just wanna meet my bean already and apologize for being such a worry wart this whole time.