best friends

Dear ladies,

have you ever had a best friend?

did you become best friends in your early life (kindergarten,..) or teenage life or later in life?

so the girl I always considered my best friend recently asked me to be besties.. which for me isn't a big change at all because like I said, for me she already was the friend I was closest with anyways and the one to confide in.

Now she's talking about making things official and she seems a bit manic.. and I'm not reconsidering but tbh I'm questioning her sincerity maybe?

like usually when we meet up she is the one canceling last minute.. like no big deal, right.. we're both moms and both work hard and things happen.. I don't hold a grudge and I'm not upset about it at all, it just doesn't fit in that picture, dykwim?

we've been friends for nearly 10 years now and I always felt like she was the prettier, more popular with more friends.. so for her to come to me and to say she doesn't have girlfriends, never really had them, and she'd want me to be her best friend.. like she already was that for me but I also don't know how to feel for her. I'm happy I guess, but if this is the truth I'm maybe also a bit sad that she never felt close enough before to actually verbalize that..

the reason I'm sceptical is just because I've just went though a rough life changing event and I've had bad experiences with those in my past, where I was trying to escape abusive situations and people would use those to do these things specifically, pretend to be my friend, to get information on me to bully me.. I do think that my fear is invalid here but it plays in the back of my head.

@Summer Shandy

Like I said, I had some bad experiences, for me that was in my teenage years so it may not even be relevant, but it's how I feel about it, I guess.

What I meant with.. it's not fitting the scenario is her often cancelling on me - which is fine, like I said - but now she's so almost manic about being best friends.. I feel it might possibly be an act but that also probably has to do with my high school dramatic experience.. I don't know how I feel about it because she's being so manic and for me this was already how it felt, it just didn't have that name yet.

It just kinda seems like "too much".. but I must admit that I have this more often.. maybe it's a me-problem.. idk.. That's why I posted.

She wants to make it official with pictures (and possibly posting on social media? She's quite into IG)