I feel so ugly

I was on a call with this guy, and then we decided to switch on our cameras. He calls me and texts me every day (we know each other for 3 years and met in person many times), but after opening our cameras he immediately found an excuse to end the call. Then he hasn’t called me back since, texted me a few random stuff but the communication is very limited now compared to before. The only reason I can think was that he probably got turned off by how I looked, which I know many of you will say it’s enough of a reason to let him go. But now I am left alone here, feeling more insecure than ever, and whenever I feel like this I just don’t want to do anything, or eat anything, and I get worse and worse.

This is a selfie I took that same night, you can see that I am not happy and that probably makes me look even uglier.

I know my skin is bad, I’ve got pimples and lines. And this is my worst insecurity, but I am working on it, I am trying.

I don’t know how to stop thinking about this, I guess this is why I am making this post. I would love some kind words and advice on how to deal with this. It drains my energy, I feel super exhausted and unmotivated.