Adult Diagnosis

Has anyone ever written themselves off as chaotic and lazy only to find out they actually are just an extremely anxious person and were high functioning most of your life?? I think I actually have ADD or something. On days where I get less than optimal sleep I’m particularly useless… I mean like can’t collect myself to hang laundry because I walk back and forth between rooms trying to figure out what to do first and end up doing nothing until my one non negotiable commitment at 4pm?

I canceled my dentist appointment (that I haven’t been to in years) and my dogs grooming appointment cuz I couldn’t get it together yesterday. It’s so embarrassing and frustrating and I don’t know what to do.

I used to smoke weed to calm me down (here and there from like august to September last year) and I could focus to get things done but I got advice from other people online that it was the weed that was making me feel this way. I wasn’t even smoking much and I knew that was wrong but willing to try and also moved back to an illegal state anyway so I haven’t been smoking at all but it helped me. I only share that part because I want to give more context and I hope someone can relate.

If you’re like me, or different from me but struggle and have ways to help you please share them. I’m starting to think I want medication but would rather not and I’m scared. Anddd who knows if I would even make it to my appointment.

For more context exercise helps and I’m trying to do it every day. I also feel better when my diet is good but I have hardly any appetite anymore and when I do want something it’s like watermelon and chips and everything else I eat I make myself eat because my husband is a great cook and wants to make sure I eat.