I’m sorry it’s taken a while to get back to you

It’s been a long day

A long year

And I’m going through some AuDHD burnout shit or something right now

It’s the most beautiful day but my heart literally hurts

Because

My brain is always working against me and I’m sick of it

Social situations where everyone knows what to talk about except me

I sit alone in discomfort

Or I sit with other people in discomfort

So lately I’ve been choosing to sit alone

And maybe people judge me and think I’m dismissive or cold

But it feels more authentic than sitting in with people

Because that way my physical space resembles

My mental space

Does anyone else ever feel this way?

The introvert that craved connection

But can only recharge alone

I love my ADHD son so much

But sometimes when I’m not with him I just need to

Sit alone

In silence

And I don’t want to have to think about what to say