I had our last baby two weeks ago and his vasectomy is scheduled for august. I struggle terribly with getting so depressed on how fast the days go by. This is our 3rd and last baby. I felt like this after our second baby, because I never realized how fast time went by after our first. So when I had another one i tried to soak up every second. But now that I have our third I still realize that no matter how much you try to soak it in, it still just slips right through your fingers.

I find myself randomly crying when I look at all my children and realize that this is all temporary. The emotion of it all is so strong sometimes (it gets worse at night) but knowing this is 100% our last is just killing me. I don’t think I’m ready to be done, but my husband is and we want to stay financially stable for the kids we have. So I completely understand why we are stopping. But the thought of this chapter closing is killing me.

How do you mammas cope with this? I’m having a terrible time. And I hate being sad in front of my children. I try to isolate myself in a different room when it happens so they don’t see me cry. Other times I just sit and hold my baby while tears just stream. This is just so sad for me.