I am 13 wks pregnant with my second child. I noticed pink blood when I wiped this morning. It had faded to a brown over several hours. This is more than I bled with my first and I don’t think I was this far along when I bled with him. It started back up this evening but not as much. I am not cramping at all nor feel ill. I feel my usual symptoms of exhaustion, hunger, and persistent mild nausea. I only had mild lightning crotch last night before bed. I have not had any sex nor anything like that. I am also geriatric pregnancy but have been very active and healthy my whole life. I had zero complications with my first pregnancy. I have had no prior miscarriages. But that doesn’t mean nothing bad could happen to me.

Now, I called my obgyn’s office. He works with another obgyn. He is out of the office working in another town for the week and is on vacation the following week. Okay. I asked to see one of their nurses. There is NO ONE else working in his stead. Even their nurses are NOT seeing patients. Wtf? Is this normal for a practice? I have spoken with both Dr’s nurses over the phone and neither seemed concerned at all. Just go to the ER if I start cramping on one side, chills, dizzy etc…Wtf? I don’t have $500 out of pocket like that right now. I feel very much over looked and like no one gives a shit about my health care. I’m VERY pissed tbh. It’s enough to make me want to find a new obgyn. Even the secretary was pretty much like, you’re shit out of luck, I guess. Not verbatim but didn’t need to be.

No one really has my back on this because, “WhAt CoUlD tHeY dO iF yOu WErE hAvInG a MiScArRiAgE?” WHAT THE FUCK?! I don’t know, let me hear the heartbeat or prepare me for an eventual miscarriage, I fucking guess?? Or see if there’s hemorrhaging? Is my peace of mind not worth it? Or finding something? Husband isn’t concerned because what could they do. Mom is lecturing me because I’m pissed and thinks I’m just mad because they can’t get me in and the nurses obviously don’t give a shit. I work the next two days so soonest I could maybe do an early look ultrasound would be Monday.

I can take honesty. Am I being an asshole? Unreasonable? Am I acting selfish or being woe is me about this? I certainly don’t want to act like any of that. I just am scared, frustrated and want my second baby to be healthy and be here. I am in a small town so that may be a problem. Our hospital is shit. A close friend always gets in with her Dr immediately if she has any concerns but she is in a big city.

I just feel cast aside.

Help? Advice? Reality check?