I’m just so discouraged

So I know this is probably going to come off as dumb or like common sense. But I was just watching a TikTok that kind of put my fertility into a different perspective, and now I feel more hopeless than ever. I’ve been off birth control since I got married in October 2022 and haven’t been actively avoiding pregnancy. We just kind of had the attitude of “if it happens, it happens”. That was until July of last year when we decided to officially start <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android">tracking ovulation</a> and TTC. So this whole time I’ve been feeling like I’ve only been TTC for a year. Which I still haven’t had any luck, but was at least still optimistic that it could happen soon and like there was nothing wrong. Basically the tiktok that I watched was saying how people who aren’t actively avoiding pregnancy, but aren’t trying either, approximately 80% of them will get pregnant within a year. It hit me like a ton of bricks. That whole first year of not “trying” but not “avoiding” still counts as part of my journey that up until now, I’ve basically not even thought about. So now, rather than 1 year of trying without luck, it’s really been going on 2 years that I haven’t had any luck. I’m really sorry for the long post. But that really sent me into a feeling of defeat that I just needed to vent about. Currently I’m 9dpo and feeling like why even bother testing this month because why would it happen now if it hasn’t happened in 2 years…