I have been in a toxic relationship for four years. I finally got the courage to leave. This man is dangerous and I’m scared he’s going to find me but I finally left. I know I am doing the right thing. I know he is never going to change. He will eventually kill me or have me killed if I stay. He is in prison and I know people will say it’s easy to leave but it’s not I have tried to leave before. He has a long reach on the streets. He has sent his people to my house. He’s had them shoot up my house. Restraining and protection orders are a joke. Police and DOC don’t do anything! That doesn’t stop anyone who wants to get you touched!!! So I had to “disappear” so that he can’t find me. But the most disgusting about it all is I miss him and I love him…..well the man he pretended to be. I have a lot of healing to do and I’m excited to start over but I have a long road ahead. Thanks for listening to my venting and please no judgement, everyone thinks they know what they would do until they are truly In the situation