I am a first-time mother, my baby is 3 months old, almost 4, for about 2 months I have been having bad thoughts about hurting my baby and I feel bad because I see him and I say, he is my son, how could I do something like that to him? I love him with all my soul but I can't stop thinking about it and sometimes I get angry for nothing and when he cries I get very desperate and yell at my husband for no reason. I would like to know if what is happening to me is postpartum depression or if I am crazy, I don't know 😭 ,I couldn't hold back any longer to say it.