I keep catching my bf cheating on me.

I know I should break up with him and yes I’m trying I just lack boundaries and have low self esteem.

But why won’t he just tell me he doesn’t want to be with me. Instead of doing these things then gaslighting me (which doesn’t work) I’m not crazy.. I know what I seen. I have all evidence and still he lies.

But why won’t they just say it. I literally beg this man to tell me he wants to see other people and he won’t. But he gets mad at me for getting mad at him for cheating and doing the things he does to me… “can you stop pinning these girls on me” “can you stop accusing me of cheating” sir I’m not accusing you I have proof. 😕 and I’ve showed you. And you say things like “they’re just telling you anything because they want to be with me so bad” and like they’re literally telling me he’s not their type. 🥲… but he wasn’t my type either.

Anyways he came over today and told me how much he loved me and all of this and I said well we need to talk more and he said about what threw a fit and left…. only for me to see that he was talking to another girl and rushed me off the phone to call her back. I asked her about it and she said that they were just chatting blah blah idc if he can’t hold a conversation with me he shouldn’t hold one with anybody!!

But why don’t they just say they don’t want to be together and want to see other people. Instead of having to deal with us nagging them about doing just that without breaking up.

And even if I broke up with him he wouldn’t leave me alone.