So my ex-fiancee and I have been together for 12 years since I was fresh 18! During all of those years, I was the sole provider and he could only keep a job for a couple of months. He never paid for anything, did anything around the house, and wasn't there for me emotionally. He would get drunk and have streaks where he was using drugs. Then he would become violent and break things sometimes things would get physical and he would hurt me. A few months after our 12 year anniversary he had a friend of his come and stay with us. His friend was polite, helped me around the house, and paid his own way. Fast forward to March, my ex gets into a physical altercation with our neighbor forcing us to move.

My ex couldn't be on the property so of course his friend helped me pack up and move everything! His friend even went above and beyond and found us the place to move to. During our few weeks alone together moving strong feelings developed. Very strong feelings! We shared a very intimate celebration hug when we completed the move. We then talked about telling my ex it would be better if he didn't move in and I left him. Nothing happened besides a hug prior to my ex and I breaking up. I should've left him years ago but I was so comfortable with what our relationship had become.

I also feared that if I left him he would have nowhere to go and end up homeless and on drugs. I cared for him so much that I put my feelings aside for so long. I still feel absolutely terrible for leaving him the way I did especially for his friend. I wish things wouldn't have happened the way they did but at the same time, I'm so happy with my new bf! He's everything that I could ask for in a man! IDK why I'm posting this I know I'm going to get so much backlash but I feel like I need to express it somewhere.

Everyone keeps telling me it's about time I left him and they're happy for me but, I can't help feeling a little bit guilty. 🥺