I have an emergency c section with my first she’s 17 months now. I labored River 30 hours before high. Got my C-section. I tried pushing my daughter out but she just would not come. And I couldn’t not Handel the c section all the pressure and polling put me in a full-blown panic attack and they had to put me under which I hated because I felt terrible after my recovery was super rough and I ended up with a bad infection lord and tears and post partum.

Next week I go to be induced again with my second boy this time and I opted for another C-section even though I am scared to death I didn’t want to have a long labor and then be cut anyways as I’m 37 weeks and not dilated at all so c secrion will go on. So I’m asking if anyone else has bad c section anxiety and if so how do you stay calm ?

Any help is appreciated I just really don’t want to stay calm and be awake the whole time I hated how I felt when I got up k was super out of so the first moments with my first was not like how I planned. This is also a schedule c section so any tips for that would be great. Thank you.