My ex boyfriend always made me feel awful about myself after he would eat me out. He’d say the smell and taste and texture was gross and he just can’t get past it to eat me out. We were together for 3 years and i did everything I could to fix any problems, but he stuck to what he said.

Eventually he clarified that it wasn’t necessarily a me problem, he just didn’t like it in general (but didn’t tell me that until we were at the end of the relationship)

I have a new boyfriend and he’s gone down on me a few times and I can’t help but feel embarrassed and like he’ll think i’m gross down there too. He hasn’t said anything negative so far and I don’t ask him to eat me out, he just does it. At one point he was eating me out, then switched to fucking me, and once he came he said “let me eat your fucking pussy again” which made me feel good.

But I can’t help the thoughts in the back of my head that are telling me he’s grossed out and just doesn’t want to tell me because the relationship is so new. How do I get over these insecure thoughts? I keep myself clean and think I’m normal down there, but I’m still scared and can’t get past it.