Am I Wrong on doing this??

Me and my Partner have been together for 11years we have a beautiful Daughter who is 9 we have been trying to get pregnant for baby #2 but unfortunately I have been diagnosed with pocos I know I can still get pregnant but it’s not easy!! I have noticed depression has been getting to me constantly and I just been feeling like I’m not Worth it anymore 😭 I try to find any little thing to fight with him, push him away from this relationship that way he can find someone else that can give him more kids that he wants.. Honestly I don’t know what I can do anymore