Ever since we got married, it’s like he’s different, either that or I never really knew him. We have been married for eight months and it’s honestly been the worst ever. We have fought about so many things and had so many issues. He’s not the person I thought I was marrying. I love the lord so much and because of that I don’t want to just jump to a divorce at all, but he has been so aggressive with his verbal attacks and just wearing my patience so thin, I feel like if I stay with him then I will not be the person God wants for me because it feels like he brings up the worst in me because I have to constantly defend myself against his attacks, and I get so incredibly angry with him which is my fault too, but I can’t run away from the things that cause me to sin which is him because we are married. I can’t be a biblical wife like that. Everyone says the first year of marriage is the worst so I am trying to keep that In mind also but I am honestly miserable with this man. I hate the way I feel about myself around him, like I’m just some dumb woman who doesn’t know anything about the world around me when I really am capable of so much and my heart would not be so cold if I was not married to him. But I also would feel so stupid getting divorced after such a short time, and also the fact that divorce is expensive even without us having children. My family wouldn’t help me if I where to file for divorce, I just don’t know what to do anymore. I guess I’m not really looking for answers I just needed to vent so thanks for letting me do that.