Am I wrong for mocking my cousins death?

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I hate men. I can't stand men. They hurt. They rape. They treat us as subhuman. My uncle is a rapist. He's evil. He raped me for years. He abused my mom and raped her. He's an awful person. He went to prison for that and child porn but he's out now and has bragged about what he did. Bragged about selling nude pictures of my little girl body. That man cares about nothing else except his son's. His boys are the only thing in the world he loves. Years ago he hired someone to beat up a girl who broke up with Brody. His oldest son. Brody was just as bad as his father. He also sexually abused me. 
He went to prison 4 years ago for raping a 4-year-old girl. He was murdered in prison. That was the only thing that could hurt my uncle was his son dead. That was the only thing that could make him cry. I wanted him to hurt. I was happy he hurt. His other son Travis died in January. Travis lived with his mom and I didn't really know much about him. Probably also just like his dad. He died in a car accident. His last son is Mason and honestly. Out of all the men I hate. Which is all men. I couldn't help but hate him the least. Mason was sweet. It could have all been an act and he's really just like his father but for as long as I can remember Mason was sweet. I even remember my uncle saying he couldn't believe a boy so good came from him. 
Mason died last week. He hung himself. He struggled with severe depression. All my uncle's son's are dead and I've heard he thinks this is his karma. Losing everything he ever cared about. And it brings me joy. More family went to Masons funeral because he was good and well-liked. I went and when I saw my uncle. I couldn't help myself. I said think. I mocked his death because I knew it hurt him. I wanted a man who hurt me to hurt. My mom was angry at me and said Mason was good. He was sweet. Mocking him at his own funeral is wrong. I told her to remember what that monster has done and she said it's not about her brother it's about her nephew and Mason was the sweetest in the entire world. 
Was I wrong? Am I wrong for finally being happy my uncle feels pain. That all his sons died. Everything he ever cared about it gone and I'm happy. I'm happy Mason is dead because it hurts my uncle.

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You’re not wrong for how you feel towards your uncle. But you’re wrong for mocking his innocent son at his own funeral. It would’ve been more respectful to just not even go. I highly recommend therapy to help you.

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You need therapy. Not all men are the same. Not all men rape. Women are capable of the same thing as men. You can relish in the death of your uncle and your other abusers, but to say the rest of his sons are just like their father, is not based on fact. You are projecting your anger towards men that did nothing to you, while compiling them under the same umbrella. Seek therapy for your trauma.

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you’re entitled to your feelings. but mason was innocent, from what you know at least, and his death affected more than just your uncle. he had other loved ones at his funeral that did not deserve to have heard you mocking his death. and you need to work on getting therapy, not all men rape and not all men hurt women. It will take time to heal and unlearn that but you won’t live a normal life if you hold deep hatred for every man on earth for the rest of your life

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Im with everyone else. You need intensive therapy, women can be just as evil as men. Also not all men are terrible. My ex fiance was an amazing person, and my current s.o. is an incredible human with just the softest heart even tho he can seem stoic and curt. Im sorry for what you have been through, your mama too, but please dont let that much hate live in your heart. Itll tear you down physically and mentally and i dont think you deserve that. And your abusers, gone or not, dont deserve to have that kind of hold on your life.

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You can totally enjoy the suffering of your uncle and the other brother who did that to you as well and stuff. But the last one who died could have done so because he couldn’t stand who his dad is and who his brothers were. His dad could be the reason he did what he did. Knowing that his brothers and dad did those things. Maybe he was afraid he would turn into those men. Trust me. I understand that men suck, but it really isn’t all men. Some men actually don’t want to be like those guys. Some men are disgusted by those types of dudes. Personally I think you should get therapy. As someone who has been through that type of shit. It helps. If you find the right therapist and the right type of therapy it really can help.

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Jeez that was rough to read and I’m sorry for your traumas and it’s understandable why you feel the way you feel, except for your cousin Mason,  you think he didn’t follow his father’s footsteps so he deserves best wishes and hope he makes it to a better place. Honestly and this isn’t to make you feel bad about yourself but you have to seek therapy. There’s so much trauma there you need to work out and find peace, in order to more forward in life and stop that internal pain. To find something else to focus on or use that energy to help others with their traumas instead of focusing on hatred. Hatred won’t do much to your abusers, your happiness will. It’s like drinking poison and expecting it to hurt them. There’s bad men but there’s also good men. Just like women, good women and bad women.

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You should find a psychologist.

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You need therapy. Maybe some medication. Not all men are evil, not all are rapist, and it’s sad you think that way. You are wrong for mocking someone’s￼ death.

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Your wrong. Seek help.

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You need a lot of professional help. I 100% understand the sentiment behind what you’re saying. But dear god, you’re relishing in an innocent persons suffering. There’s no telling what that boy went through. A majority of men do have issues but to punish and be evil towards the innocent for your own weird vendetta is insanely weird and fucked up. Think about how many times people say all women are the same and that’s why they are treated X y z type of way. Your pain makes sense but choosing to sit in this thought process is extremely reductive. That poor boy took his own life after going through god knows what and losing everything himself…

Am I wrong for mocking my cousins death?

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