I’ve had a guy friend I’ve known for years met him online when I was a teenager. He’s about my age through out the years him and I may of met up and hooked up. At one point he told me that he had gotten drunk and got a woman who was years older than him pregnant. I still talked to him as a friend. Years later we hooked up again I guess he was still seeing him his woman and possibly in a relationship with her. Me at the time I had my own things going on. I had a bf and was trying to get out of that relationship. But that guy and I made the mistake of wanting a 3 some with a random woman online… Not a good idea. Later I end up hooking up with the other guy then I find out I have an std and pass it to the guy not knowing. I felt so awful after I found out. Years later he wants to see me again. I have a new bf at the time so this time I really shouldn’t cheat on my bf I know this. Several years after him messaging me the first time I then see him again. But it’s too late. He’s about to get married to the woman he had his first child with and other children. I fell for him deeply. I feel so awful. He then said I’m sorry we just need to be friends. I said that’s fine. Then several weeks ago around my b-day he wants to see me. I was like okay just as a friend me not thinking twice. He messages me at night me not thinking oh this could be a drunk text. So then he tried to hint for me to go to him. But I was so tired by the time he came to me it was 5am. Then I realized oh he’s drunk he kept saying what’s wrong. I had gotten a little nervous. Then we got to my house ended up doing it. I let him sleep it off as much as I could. I live with a room mate so she said she was coming by and he said oh I guess I better go. I felt so bad. I waited for him to tell me he made it back home. That night he never did until the next day. He said he had gotten a dwi and went to jail and will probably be doing more jail time because of it. I felt so horrible. I had made that mistake knowing that. He messaged me the other day wanting to hang out before he goes to court. But I know it’s very wrong. Not sure what to do or think right now. Since it was a little bit on me that he came to me in the first place. I told him I would pray for him and that he gets out sooner. I know he has a family that he needs to be with. I care about him but I know we both need to move on.