laparoscopic bilateral salpingectomy

I’m 3 weeks post op as of Wednesday. I’m 36, no children. I’ve been in pain for last 7years after having a ruptured ovarian cyst and uterine fibroids. However, this past year has been the worst. When my OBGYN (he’s great) first saw me, he heard me. For the first time, someone was hearing me out instead of brushing off my concerns. After undergoing multiple ultrasounds, surgery was scheduled. While i understood all my options we didn’t know what the outcome would be until he was in there looking for himself. . . Both fallopian tubes were removed due to severe scarring and endometriosis lesions were removed from the uterus. Every article I read is “sterilization” and can’t find anything that resonates with me. I feel alone in this process, I did not choose this for me. I did want to have children and build a family but now I feel like my chances have become small. The grief I feel is eating me up. Has anyone else gone through this?