I just want to vent,It’s my freaking fault I stayed with a man that show sign of abuse but he promise me otherwise if I don’t sleep with him because he mistreat me he grab my wrist and throw me around and yell at me, I am weak I grew up with a mom that took care of all the bills and I don’t know how to be on my own since she pass I ’m being honest so I’m scared to be by myself so I’m with a man that help me a lot but his bad trait is showing a lot and he is getting worst, I’m scared for my life, I’m in the bathroom hiding and shaking, I have a great degree that will take care of me but Im also in school to continue my education to pay me more money. I know I would never have kids with him or Marry him my kids would hate me for putting me in that environment. If anything happens to me I love my family so much and I can’t wait to see my mom in heaven it’s been to long and I hope my family especially my siblings don’t feel empty inside I never told them what’s going on inside my household because we all had a lot and had to rearrange our life and I did not want to be burden so to them my partner is perfect, but behind closed door I’m getting abused mentally and physically,my body aches. That’s why when I pray to god I just ask for him to hear me out he gave me the degree it’s up to me to take the step to work and use it, I’m to blame for this abuse I know deep inside it doesn’t change unless I leave