Boyfriend is mad at me for deleting this series off my channel

My boyfriend recently accused me of still being in love with an ex that I hadn't been with in like 13 years. When I was in my early 20's I made a YouTube series that became a little popular about my psycho high school ex. I would tell story times from when I was with him and they were my most popular videos. I know they ended up hurting this guy and I didn't care at the time. I just turned 30 and haven't posted on YouTube in several years and went into my account to private some videos and I private my entire Psycho Highschool Ex playlist. I privated so many videos because I did not like who I was back then and how I spoke about people. With the psycho ex stuff when it comes down to it, was he the best guy? No. But when you get to the root of majority of my stories about him, it was just hyping up nothing. One of them that has over 800k views is about a shitty taco bell date he took me on after prime. It literally wasn't anything. And nothing he did warranted being labeled a psycho ex. One story time was a shitty sex story about the worst sex I ever had with him and I don't like a video up of me a 22 year old talk about how shitty sex was with my ex who was 16 when we had sex. A lot of the shitty things he did when we were dating can be drawn back to he was young and in reality, he didn't do anything horribly awful. He wasn't a psycho. It was just a crappy teenager relationship. So I deleted the entire playlist. My boyfriend is taking this as I must still have feelings for him if I'm worried about hurting him. I already hurt him. Years ago. I haven't spoken to my high school ex in like 8 years. I keep telling him I genuinely don't like the person I was back then and am ashamed of that content. I'm now getting the silent treatment and he's telling me to ride my ex's dick. Am I wrong for deleting it?