negative/ only 8DPO/9DPO but sad

Melissa

Feeling defeated. I know that it’s early but I can’t help but already feel sad. I want this so bad.

I haven’t had a ton of symptoms hearsay but a couple days ago had intense cramps, slight nausea, slight boob tenderness. So far CD59 and tend to be a normal for me. I either want a positive or my period at this point so I can start progesterone to start my period. Why is TWW so hard?