ANXIETY

I should be 7 weeks today and my anxiety is through the roof. I had a baby at 16 and he was perfect and healthy…secondary infertility hit after I married my husband in 2013…we had 5 miscarriages and decided to become foster parents. We adopted 3 beautiful boys and had another miscarriage in 2020 making 6 total…Well, I got unexpected news when my cycle was late on Nov. 18th…I have a homozygous MTHFR mutation and am obviously TERRIFIED due to my history…We had an ultrasound the day before Thanksgiving, measured right on track of 6 weeks and 1day with a beautiful heart rate of 132bpm…But I also have a subchorionic hemorrhage which I’ve had in the past accompanied by light spotting off and on…everything that “should be normal” has never been normal for me…Follow up ultrasound on Dec. 18th and the wait is killing me…we’ve only made it to 9 wks once and it was our first pregnancy in 2014…all the others were lost at 7wks or sooner…I’m trying to stay positive but it’s so hard!!!