I’m lowkey terrified…

You would think I would be used to this by now since this is my third viable pregnancy, but I’ve never had twins before. Yes I was scared with my other two but by my second I knew what to expect and she kinda shot out of me so it was quick. But with these two boys I’m extremely terrified of a c-section I do not want to be cut wide open I’d rather a vaginal birth which scares me less because I’ve done it before just now ima have to do it twice. I have no idea what to expect with a c-section and I’ve seen a lot of horror stories I do not want to be that momma who the tap or epidural does not work and they start cutting. Aside from that tho i dont know how im going to breastfeed two babies at the same time, and its going to be such an overwhelming adjustment on top of everything else that we have going on, such as I’m full time in school my two older ones are in school and sports we have a very very small support system here as the only people we have are my aunt and sister the rest of our family is n hour away…. Ugh i dont know what to do