Do you have a length of time you will dedicate to TTC?

So I know this is an odd question and that most of you amazing ladies will try until you get your babies, but I’m starting cycle 20. I’ve had 3 losses and I’m 36. I can feel my mental health slowly becoming more and more unmanageable. I think I have mild depression on top of my anxiety. I have one child who is my world. Who I would love to give a sibling, but I keeping thinking about how happy we are as a little family of three. I’m starting to bounce back and forth between desperately wanting another baby and wanting to give up. I’m devastated every month when I get my period. I can’t keep going on like this. My doctor says to just keep trying everything is normal and it will happen but I’m thinking 2yrs is where I draw the line. I think my husband will be disappointed but he has made no effort to make this baby besides doing his part in the bedroom. I’m taking the supplements. I’m having the tests run, I’m doing bloodwork, and I’m the one carrying the grief of our miscarriages. I just feel so guilty giving up. Like I’m letting myself down somehow. I know 2yrs isn’t a long time but it’s feeling pretty heavy right now. Has anyone else decided to stop trying after a certain time frame? How do I know it’s the right choice?

**Yes I would have liked to have more tests done but it was like pulling teeth just to get an ultrasound and basic bloodwork done. I asked for a referral after my second loss and was told no. Then after the third I asked again and was referred to my OB. My losses are early and OB said after a loss you start counting cycles over again so it’s technically been 9 months since my last pregnancy. He’s not concerned unless they are second trimester losses. He went as far as to tell me to treat them like a heavy period……

Hubby has not made any effort to see a doctor. I can’t make him go….he has a lot of anxiety in medical settings (passes out during bloodwork, gets dizzy in a hospital) he hasn’t seen a doctor in years. He won’t even take coq10 or stop using his heated seats….he’s literally put zero effort in and it’s frustrating.