8dpo i think im out :( :(

got really bad backache since yesterday and period cramps no other symptoms ... im due in 8 days ......all signs of af showing ... took a test at 7dpo negative ttc nearly 11 years why cant i just hve my bundle of joy :( :( please lord send me and hubby a blessing ... i feel defeated track ovulation and bd 3 days before and 1 day after ... but still signs of ugly af showing :( :( :(