Just done and tired

Im officially done with TTC ( was but wasn’t ) found out I was pregnant in October lost my baby 12/21/2024 due to a partial molar pregnancy that really bothered me so bad because honestly I was so scared but the moment I start to get excited about my baby boom a miscarriage something I’ve never went through after that loss I swear I’ve tested every single day lines dark one day the next not beta was 10 last Monday but I ovulated a week or two ago felt like I had all the signs of implantion lines even started getting darker so I thought to today I’ve had so many fake bfp with clear blue and target up and up test spotting today so I know my period is coming this has been a long confusing journey for me im not sure what god tryna tell me but I’m listening 🤷🏽‍♀️ I just wanna put all this past me I can’t even tell you how many test I’ve took it’s honestly sad even while typing this I still got a little hope even when I know about to get my period